Currently Reading Fear Less for Life By M. Ed Stephen Arterburn, M. D. Paul Meier, PH. D. Robert Wise see related

It has been quite a long time since I've posted on here.  I guess I haven't really felt like it.  Life has been okay in the last month.  I just finished this quarter of school on Thursday so now I have 3 weeks to relax before another quarter begins.  I don't know yet how well I did in my classes but I know that I could have done better.  I began to not care a whole lot by the end of the quarter.  I'm still working at UPS.  Officially, I'll be there for 2 more weeks but I still don't know if they can hire me permanently.  I'm kinda hoping that they won't be able to because I really don't like the hours.  This Monday I have to be in to work by 2:00 am.  That's not too exciting.  I put my application in at 2 different Starbucks but I really don't know if that will work out or not.  It probably wouldn't be until January.  So Christmas is close but it really doesn't feel like it.  I used to be so excited for Christmas.  Of course that was when I was a little kid and I couldn't wait to open my gifts.  I still get excited about giving and receiving gifts but this year I'm just not as excited as what I would like to be.  I guess I haven't done any shopping yet so maybe that will get me in the mood.  Or maybe, things in my life have not turned out as great as I would like them to be so my joy in Christmas isn't what it used to be. 

In the last few weeks I've been learning some important things about life.  I'm learning about choices.  The choices that I make today may affect me for the rest of my life.  I'm learning that God gives us many different choices and there isn't always necessarily one right choice.  He may choose to bless us with whatever choice we make as long as we continue to follow Him.  I had the choice to stay at home and go to school and continue helping out with my youth group or I had the choice to move to the Columbus area and go to school and live on my own.  I think God would have blessed me if I would have stayed at home, but I believe He will bless me here as well.  So far, I have been blessed in many areas but it's been difficult to feel blessed.  Some of these choices involve risk and you have to put yourself out there.  I could just stay in my little bubble and run away from all of the risks.  I will never be happy though if I don't risk something.  To become a Christian is risking everything.  But it's the best risk ever to take.  Moving away is a risk but it can be a great thing or it could be bad.  Relationships are risky, but they could be one of the greatest things ever.  Risks are scary because there always the chance that you may have taken the wrong risk.  But if you always live worrying about taking the wrong risk, then you will just be paralyzed by fear and you won't do anything.  Life is full of risks and I believe to grow and to actually enjoy life, then you must face those risks head on.  For myself, I'm scared to take those risks because what if I mess up or what if it's a horrible mistake.  I don't believe that "what ifs" are from God.  "What ifs" are just other words for worry.  God has our future under control.  All we need to do is continue to follow Him and He will bless us if we're willing to take that risk with Him.  I think truly following God is the biggest risk that any person can ever take.  Anyways, that's what I've been learning recently.    

Currently Listening History By Matthew West see related

If someone gave me an option: getting punched in the face or sitting through 3 hours of a natural science 101 lecture.  I think I would have to pick getting punched in the face.  For those of you who are science fans out there, I applaud you because I absolutely hate science.  I am able to accept that this is the way it is and be done with it.  I don't need to know about the nucleoid, the ribosomes, and the cytoplasm.  Who really cares?  I know I don't.  I realize that through a lot of these breakthroughs that scientists have come up with, my life has been made easier.  A good example is medicines.  But you know I think I'll just take my 3 science classes that I need to graduate and be done with it.  I know that I'll probably forget pretty much everything I've learned in this class and the sad thing, I really just want it to be over. 

So my brothers and I went to a play on Saturday night because I have to see a play and write a critical review on it.  Well this play was called Farndale Macbeth, for short.  I really like Macbeth and I thought this sounded like a different version and I knew I could get in free so I might as well check it out.  Well it turned out that it was a comedy which wasn't necessarily a bad thing and there were some really funny moments.  But there were also some really annoying moments.  Anyone who is considering watching "The Farndale Avenue Housing Estate Townswomen's Guild Dramatic Society's Production of 'Macbeth,'" please don't.  And yes, that is the title that is on the program.  Now I have to write a paper about it.  I've got a page done and I'm just procrastinating right now but it's time to end the procrastination. 

Owww!!  So I'm feeling a little sore right now.  I just started my job at UPS this weeek.  I can tell that my body has not been involved in hard physical labor in quite a while.  I'm also not used to the early hours.  I start at 4:30 am and get off close to 9 am.  I load up trucks.  It's constant movement and lifting boxes weighing up to 70 lbs.  Most of them don't weigh that much.  Anyways, I'm so sore that my toes even hurt.  My brother would make fun of me right now since he's been working there for quite a while and he would probably call me a wuss.  I actually enjoy the job so far because it's almost like I'm getting paid to work out. 

This week I move into the chicken house.  We've already moved some stuff in but it's kinda weird and kinda cool to know that I'm gonna actually be in my own place for the first time.  Maybe I'll post some pictures of my sweet new pad later.  Well I should probably do some studying now.